delusions Show more
i went through a period at the height of my delusional thinking where i was truly convinced my purpose on earth was to bring about the apocalypse and end life as we know it so it could be reborn softer and more beautiful. now i'm thinking maybe i was right all along, but the only life needing an end and rebirth is my own. some nights it doesn't feel too late to rebuild all the little civilizations in my head, so maybe we still have a chance.
i feel a sense of not belonging that runs far deeper than just an inability to connect with my surroundings. it quite genuinely feels as though i've been cosmically misplaced somewhere i very much was not meant to be.
unreality somewhat Show more
i've read multiple accounts of those who've said their life hasn't felt real or had changed drastically since 2012. looking back myself, oddly enough, that's also the year my own life changed and i still experience the aftershocks of it every moment. how odd.
the ability to look back in time and find the choice that set your life on its current path is a strange thing. even stranger is the thought you may someday be looking back at this exact moment and feel the same way.
rearranging your bedroom is a nice feeling. the whole atmosphere feels brand new and even lighter, like moving around furniture scared out ghosts that were hiding behind them
there's a very specific feeling places like unfamiliar gas stations, rest stops or airports bring about. they have a sort of chaotic energy and seem to exist only in the strange in-between state of coming and going, as if when you leave them they'll disappear.
there's so much comfort in a liminal space. i love existing within the center of impermanence. the feeling of being on the verge of change. the middle ground between what was and what soon will be.
dreams of a post-collapse world where society has crumbled and the internet no longer exists
i'm full of dirt and smiles
i've felt othered and strange and misplaced in this life for so long the concept of connection with others and finding my place in existence seems unattainable, much too far out of my grasp
feeling a disconnect tonight in the way the world perceives me and the way i perceive the world
at the moment i'm very motivated and emotionally energized yet also quite ill and exhausted so my current state could be summed up as, 'weakly, quickly vibrating.'
my wife makes my heart fucking light up i am a beaming ray of sunshine whenever i remember that i am so lucky and blessed to have this person in my life
A vengeful girl became a beautiful memory in the depths of hell
shedding the past like the skin of a snake tonight
"i'm a little creature, i love the sky and it's features"
concept: a site for reconnecting with people you've met in dreams. that girl your sleep-self fell in love with ten years ago still searches for you every night.