mdmarron @mdmarron@weirder.earth

After a frankly Herculean effort, the printer is running again!

Is this thing a crap ton of work? Yeah. Is it cool knowing that even if I break a part, it’s built to be repaired? Hell yeah.

Yesterday was a disaster, but at least I got some soldering practice in. :) I want to get good so my Horrible Creations TM can come to life...

BLARGH, stripped the heat block threads, and then found the original assembler stripped the grubs and heat sink screws, so I can’t get it disassembled to put in a new block...

Just replacing the whole damn hotend, but it’s 20$ I don’t wanna spend

☑️ incredibly bizarre sexual interest
☑️ psychotic
☑️ conventionally unattractive
☑️ baffling relationship with technology

I’m tempted to put “I was supposed to be the villain-protagonist in a Cronenberg movie, but I took a wrong turn and now I’m here” on my dating site profile, but I think it might be misinterpreted

Just spent far too much money on a new doll... but I’m so in love. 😍

(We need a 🤖😍 emoji!)

me: what should I listen to?

the gremlin that lives in my brain and only likes the album “songs of innocence” by u2: ooh I know!

People talk about the importance of baptism, but personally, I removed the original sin from *my* body by reading poststructual politics and literary critique.

Knowledge and understanding of Good and Evil remaining: 0%.

I feel like one of my problems with relationships is an internalized sense that anything I’m open about will be used against me — daring to talk about the embarrassing and difficult parts of my life as a Mad person feels impossible.

This is particularly true with romance; it’s hard to open up to people...

Recently I’ve been able to make progress on my compulsion to eat food out of garbage/obviously spoiled food from our fridge. I don’t know where it came from, because I’ve never been food insecure, but it’s something I struggle with.

I’m sure my manager is happy too, since I called in with food poisoning like once a month at least for a while >_>

...Looking back, my parents probably had pretty wild ideas about what was age appropriate (introducing me to Eminem when I was 13).

I’m revisiting my older writing as part of NaNo prep, and Christ, 13-year-old me was wack. like wtf. this story features:
- explicit sexual violence (but I didn’t understand how sex worked so it’s ???what???)
- the entire cast of Dragonauts: The Resonance, but they’re polyamorous superheroes
- a guy turns into a giant snake and then does a suicide by cop
- briefly, eminem???

Me explaining my latest novel

Please remember that people can have assigned-sex-atypical traits even if they’re not transitioning and don’t have an intersex or hormonal condition!

Many medications for psychotic people are endocrine disrupters, and can result in us having characteristics not normally seen in our birth assignments. But when it’s between hormonal problems and hallucinating, you tend to pick the former... The world is very complicated like that!

pros of paper books:
- no DRM
- keep it forever
- lend it to friends
- actually yours
- takes up physical shelf space, so I actually read it

pros of ebooks:
- easier to sneakily read at work
- doesn’t take up physical shelf space, so I can have as many as I want

consequence:
- I own a lot of books in both formats >_>

I wish there was a better way to say that I’m... chronically injured? I’ve had at least one temporary disability at a time for all of my adult life save about three months in 2016, but I don’t have any permanent conditions.

I feel weird calling myself physically disabled, in that technically all of this could clear up at any time, but I also obtain new injuries faster than they can heal, and my doctor doesn’t know why. Presumably I have something that’s not diagnosed, but...

My online social circle essentially exploded last week; I’ve lost friends I’ve had for years because I just can’t handle the responsibilities of being their friends anymore.

Today, I made a very uncomfortable confession to a real life friend (two of my close friends are upset with each other, and this is going to be taken as taking a side...)

Kinda sucks, but at the same time, might as well get it all out there...

Got a house showing tomorrow!

I’m really hoping to move to the cities soon, I’m tired of driving so much......

this is the only thing I care about for the next month sorry all I experience is the emotion of seeing this

Actually I’m trying to write stuff that’s less convoluted and bizarre in general, and it’s like, this isn’t any fun at all! I want to give Zero Escape a run for its money >_>