Hi weirdos! It’s my birthday today, I’m 36! No exciting plans, Hannah is traveling and work is unusually busy so we’ll celebrate in a couple of weeks.
I just wanted to say: I’m incredibly grateful for all of you, for trusting me to create this space that you’re all imbuing with so much meaning.
This coming year I want to focus on giving more to my community - here and elsewhere.
Cheers, and thanks for keeping weirder earth weird!
any of you play FFXIV? I'm considering trying to get back into it...
Happy new year, weirder earthlings - thanks for being here, and here's to a great 2019 for everyone but the nazis!
The way a surprisingly good/interesting interaction can immediately pull you out of a depressed, despairing slump by letting you feel seen.
The way the opposite also holds true.
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I think ultimately he's captured some aspect of the autistic experience for sure, but I'm not sure it's the full experience. It perhaps feels more appropriate to say, the scale from hypomentalism to hypermentalism seems to map to an actual variance in modeling, between or even within people.
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It's tempting - autistic people struggle with eye contact, psychotic people often feel watched. Autistic people don't always have a shared social attention, psychotic people see conspiracy where everything is connected.
This feels maybe reductive but also maybe really interesting.
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Interesting. This 'diametric model' of the brain says that there is a cognitive faculty called 'mentalizing' which is just creating a mental model of some person and their internal state.
This theory says that sometimes people create really shallow, superficial models - or no model at all.
Other people create radically complex models, but they're filled with wrong details.
The theory says the first is called autism and the second is called psychosis.
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So uh I think I might be bipolar type 2? which I didn't know was a thing? but could explain why I have been just losing my shit at random, catastrophizing everything in my head, failing to form coherent memories of stressful situations, etc. All of this is BP2, potentially.
And BP2 apparently can be treated really successfully.
Looks like federation broke, I bounced it and we should be good. I'll check back in a bit to see if it needs anything else.
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I have been taking one of these every morning and it has helped me emotionally, mentally and physically more than any other medication I’ve taken - including the lexapro, which left me suicidal for months when I stopped taking it.
Making beef/pork stock for borscht tomorrow. My first time cooking it for my partner's mom's family, let's hope I remember to skim the fat off of the stock this time...
spending your entire childhood in a daydream as escapism leads to a persistent feeling of not belonging in this world as an adult. once you've spent so much time somewhere else, it's hard to learn how to be here now.
That warbling voice he uses in the flaming lips vocal solos is my jam.
“Will the fight for our sanity be the fight of our lives?” Etc.
Everything back clean, I'm back home. They said best guess it was a concussion with ancillary weirdness, but that I am still going to have to see a neurologist. yay!
Whacked my head something fierce this evening, a few hours later had a brief seizure.
I do not get seizures, so this development is alarming.
Now in the ER waiting for cat scan results.
Having an afternoon of just straight-up bawling to Soft Bulletin. I'd not given it a serious listen since my Troubles started, and now that I do I realize that it's so much richer than I even thought. It's about your world breaking but not having the courtesy to take you with it, and now you just have to fucking exist every damn day.
My adorable 3yo brother-in-law is currently really into two things: toilet humor and the Les Miserables soundtrack.
This results in scenarios like:
Me: Hey Jib, sing your favorite song!
Jib: "🎵There is a 🎵castle in a 💩 poopykaka hahahaha"
Hi if you can see this please reply to it! (if there are already a lot of replies you don't have to but if you want to say hi it's a good excuse!)
Are we back? Have I fixed us?!
Umm, hmm. It looks like federation is still broken, huh?
Sorry all I won’t have time until later to dig into it. We’ll get there!