I particularly remember my year in Japan, where everyone played the gender game more aggressively even than in the US.
"Men are like this, women are like that" is just a common every day conversation, because that seems to be how gender mostly works. And I always always always changed the subject, because these cliches never really spoke to me.
Hi uh who wants to talk about gender?
I'm increasingly realizing that "I guess I don't really relate to masculinity and at most feel vaguely resentful that it's been used as a cudgel for assuming I have horrible views about others" is maybe a gender take.
I am comfortable owning 'cismale but not an asshole', after years of struggling to reconcile it, but have been thinking lately if I were 15 today I might go for nonbinary?
I posted some thoughts to birdsite about the spirit world. I’d love to hear your thoughts here if you find this interesting: https://twitter.com/mykola/status/1087725341152559106?s=21
Hi weirdos! It’s my birthday today, I’m 36! No exciting plans, Hannah is traveling and work is unusually busy so we’ll celebrate in a couple of weeks.
I just wanted to say: I’m incredibly grateful for all of you, for trusting me to create this space that you’re all imbuing with so much meaning.
This coming year I want to focus on giving more to my community - here and elsewhere.
Cheers, and thanks for keeping weirder earth weird!
It's tempting - autistic people struggle with eye contact, psychotic people often feel watched. Autistic people don't always have a shared social attention, psychotic people see conspiracy where everything is connected.
This feels maybe reductive but also maybe really interesting.
Interesting. This 'diametric model' of the brain says that there is a cognitive faculty called 'mentalizing' which is just creating a mental model of some person and their internal state.
This theory says that sometimes people create really shallow, superficial models - or no model at all.
Other people create radically complex models, but they're filled with wrong details.
The theory says the first is called autism and the second is called psychosis.
So uh I think I might be bipolar type 2? which I didn't know was a thing? but could explain why I have been just losing my shit at random, catastrophizing everything in my head, failing to form coherent memories of stressful situations, etc. All of this is BP2, potentially.
And BP2 apparently can be treated really successfully.
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I have been taking one of these every morning and it has helped me emotionally, mentally and physically more than any other medication I’ve taken - including the lexapro, which left me suicidal for months when I stopped taking it.
Having an afternoon of just straight-up bawling to Soft Bulletin. I'd not given it a serious listen since my Troubles started, and now that I do I realize that it's so much richer than I even thought. It's about your world breaking but not having the courtesy to take you with it, and now you just have to fucking exist every damn day.
Hi I made earth a little weirder. Depressive neuroatypical weirdo.
A community that skews thoughtful and weird. Everyone who abides by the code of conduct is welcome, thoughtful weirdos most of all! :)