having named my anxiety, rather than just lumping it in as a depression symptom, means I can look at it as its own thing, which I've been doing some over the last coupe of years.
It doesn't work the way I thought it did.
When I'm feeling anxiety about something, I usually start by rolling my eyes, c'mon, jerkbrain, stop getting in the way. And then I make myself do the thing anyway.
I'm pretty sure that's making it worse. (continued)
how my anxiety works: some navel-gazing (3/3) Show more
So that's how I end up crying, terrified, over things that I've done successfully, over and over again. I keep doing it and it keeps feeling worse. Anxiety-brain doesn't listen to logic, so muscling my way through the thing is only a good solution in the shortest of terms. (sometimes, I really just have to get the thing done and worry about the consequences later).
Other than medication, I don't have reliable ways of breaking this cycle.